Did you see it, it was right next to you and you didn't notice
It tried to get your attention, to whisper promises to be broken
The tears spilled out before you could tell yourself it didn't matter
Before you could convince yourself it was just a game
Now you're left alone with that familar feeling of loss
You gave into the one thing you promised yourself you never wanted
The thing you knew could never be your's
And you were right, it never was your's
You never had it so why are the tears still flowing
Is it because you believed maybe it wasn't just a game
Maybe this time the wheel had stopped spinning and the game was over
But no, it was just a game
Just something you wanted to believe in
Used for all of your worth then thrown off the edge
The bitter taste in your mouth is from what you knew would happen
And that putrid smell is the truth burning your senses numb
It is back now whispering to you again
But this time it is whispering the truth
Truth that you cannot bear
You would rather have a spoonful of lies
So you take your spoonful, then a handful, now a tub full
Drinking yourself into comatose
The light slips away and you go with it
Not even a hint of thought is in the blank expression now permanantly plastered to your face
Your face, once so full of happiness
And your eyes, your eyes gave away your true self
Now you see nothing
You are an empty shell
Not even lonliness can penetrate into your heart
Heart? What heart? Now that is gone too
Left in its place is a jar full of ashes and dust right next to your lies that you hold onto so dearly
You have become absorbed by those lies, holding onto what you believed was
And now not even I can help you feel again